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Love and Fear

by My Heart Lies

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1.
Cities in the Night [Prelude] 01:22
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2.
Curbside Serenade 03:18
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We got our wires crossed Separated Couldn't find our destination Thought that you had left and just gone home But then I got word you just might be Somewhere else inside the building But I couldn't tell which way to go The power failed my phone And I couldn't call you back So I waited for you there Had to show you that I cared And that I would not leave without saying goodbye Not that I wanted to in truth I just wanted an excuse To get another chance to try to make you mine And ditch this curbside It was a good day Unexpected Fate was dull I had to tempt it But I felt it ended way too soon So then I thought that we should try and get ourselves together again Maybe then I'd get enough of you But I don't even know if I'm capable of that So I waited for you there Had to show you that I cared And that I would not leave without saying goodbye Not that I wanted to in truth I just wanted an excuse To get another chance to try to make you mine And ditch this curbside I've gotta tell you You are something new to me And I am clueless But I think I might not care at all 'Cause you're the kind I can believe in Know you'll be there in the deep end Dive with me Tonight’s our time to fall To fall So I waited for you there Had to show you that I cared And that I would not leave without saying goodbye Not that I wanted to in truth I just wanted an excuse To get another chance to try to make you mine And ditch this curbside Just ditch this curbside Let’s ditch this curbside
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Find You in the Light 03:43
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You never saw the future You never seemed so unsure Of anywhere you thought that you belonged Your lovers let your heart down But let me calm your eyes now ‘Cause more than you can see it you are strong If only you could see how much you mean to me I know you're lonely And it's getting hard to fight But I will find you If it's the final thing I do So hold your love tight We weren't made to fade tonight The dark’s behind you And I will find you Find you in the light I may not have the right words I never had the answers And I don’t know the reason that I’m here But I can tell you one thing Our struggle’s not for nothing Our loneliness in light could disappear If only you could see how much you mean to me I know you're lonely And it's getting hard to fight But I will find you If it's the final thing I do So hold your love tight We weren't made to fade tonight The dark’s behind you And I will find you Find you in the light I always thought I could treat you better I'd give you a love that could last forever So now what do I do, what am I trying to prove I've gone out on limbs, but can I walk on water I'll give you the love I have left to offer you I've got nothing left to lose I know you're lonely And it's getting hard to fight But I will find you If it's the final thing I do So hold your love tight We weren't made to fade tonight The dark’s behind you And I will find you Find you I always thought I could treat you better I’d give you a love that could last forever
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Inform Me 03:21
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What did I do What did I say To make you scream and run away 'Cause I swear I don't want to scare you You're making me manic I'm lost in a panic You pushed on me Like a broken belief Once part of a person You said wasn't worthy To love you now So you cast me out But I'm asking you now What did I do What did I say To make you fear and hide your face You never wanted this And neither did I Never the pain and never the fight What did I bruise What did I break To make you scream and run away 'Cause I swear I don't want to scare you from my life I'm not understanding For so long you had me But now you're gone Like an image not drawn I wanted a reason But silence was screamin' And so was I When that part of me died What was left came alive What did I do What did I say To make you fear and hide your face You never wanted this And neither did I Never the pain and never the fight What did I bruise What did I break To make you scream and run away 'Cause I swear I don't want to scare you from me All the time I wasted wondering What was oh so wrong with me It was you who had no room to speak What did I do What did I say To make you fear and hide your face You never wanted this And neither did I Never the pain and never the fight What did I bruise What did I break To make you scream and run away 'Cause I swear I don't want to scare you from my life No I swear I don’t want to scare you from my life
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Crash 02:59
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I never thought it would be you who came Only to tear apart my heart then run away You saw where I thought we could go But couldn’t say a simple no You had to watch me and my soul go up in flames I will scream Don't try to keep me quiet I cannot stand the silence Too long I've let the wreckage burn into me And I bleed The longer that I lie here You ran and let me writhe here So little is left inside And I don't wanna die I know you thought that you were justified Putting your hands onto the wheel of my life You didn’t even stop to think The damage you would do to me Would be shrapnel to a soul you set on fire I will scream Don't try to keep me quiet I cannot stand the silence Too long I've let the wreckage burn into me And I bleed The longer that I lie here You ran and let me writhe here So little is left inside And I don't wanna die You cannot flee the scene without a consequence It doesn’t matter if it wasn’t your intent I’m penetrated by your terrible debris This whole disaster demands your responsibility I will scream Don't try to keep me quiet I cannot stand the silence Too long I've let the wreckage burn into me And I bleed The longer that I lie here You ran and let me writhe here So little is left inside And I don't wanna die
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Heart Attack 02:59
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I told myself I'd never fall asleep like this again The anger is too treacherous to take My arteries are almost tensing tight enough to rend This bloody tongue has left a bitter taste My hate is hurting me My heart can hardly beat My lungs are clamping shut And my head hurts too much to think But I know the One who died for you and me Is not too far won’t hide outside our reach These broken bones will slowly start to mend This hardened heart will learn to love again I know that you were wrong but that will never make me right If only you had stopped I would have stayed I could have stood and stared as all your malice made me blind But then you would have chained me like a slave But I know the One who died for you and me Is not too far won’t hide outside our reach These broken bones will slowly start to mend This hardened heart will learn to love again It's not over It's not over This isn’t how the story ends It's not over Far from over How can we trade this second chance But I know the One who died for you and me Is not too far won’t hide outside our reach These broken bones will slowly start to mend This hardened heart will learn to love again It's not over It's not over This isn't how the story ends
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Dreams 03:39
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If faith here is ignorance And hope is desperation Then love must be outright insanity The future has been erased Reality has faded This nightmare of trying is vanity But how can I believe a lie How can I believe a lie I cannot find the rest that only You can bring The night is burning on I know that I must sleep You woke me up into a world of agony And everything is gone But part of me Part of me still dreams The light here is withering My mind is slowly fading For so many hopes here are incomplete And all eyes are witnessing The darkness try to take me Away from a truth lost so far behind But how can I believe a lie I cannot find the rest that only You can bring The night is burning on I know that I must sleep You woke me up into a world of agony And everything is gone But part of me Part of me still Cannot hear Your lullaby I’m burning out into the night This life is a nightmare But darkness bows before the day I'm falling back into your grace God you're all that remains I cannot find the rest that only You can bring The night is burning on I know that I must sleep You woke me up into a world of agony And everything is gone But part of me Part of me still Part of me still dreams
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Semiconsciousness [Interlude] 01:30
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9.
Closure (If You're Hearing This) 05:40
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If you're hearing this We've both already passed Of all the rhymes I wrote for you This was the last I don't know when we'll meet again But I’ve been told The things we've done Will reunite us at the throne Was I unfair Was I unkind The day that I pushed you away Was I impaired Was I too blind To think that I could fall to hate All I wanted was be a part of you To know the way you felt inside And see the proof No matter what could come to be I’d still be there But in the end I can't believe You’d ever care And now I know without a doubt The hard road was the only way I had to scream to get you out And live to fight another day And this is what I have become I cannot do this all alone But what would you have said that I I should have done deep down that night What if I left you all those times Turned and pretended everything was fine But for the record I’m so sorry If I caused you any pain And I’d do anything To bring you back again Come home
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Running 04:24
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I looked out the window into the snow The flashbacks started But they never stopped and wouldn't let go I wish I could rest when the day’s at its end But still I'm awake Stuck in the memory of what we could've been I thought that I wanted to escape But running away was a mistake Can I ever come back to this place Again So now I'm traveling this town If only you could hear me now You could tell that I was much better off With you here with me And even after falling out I simply can't lay this love down If you give me one more try I'll give you more of me than you've ever seen I walked out the front door into the cold And when the dark and hard times came I was afraid to come home I know that I left so much unsaid But leaving you there with silent words is still my biggest regret I thought that I wanted to escape But running away was a mistake Can I ever come back to this place Again So now I'm traveling this town If only you could hear me now You could tell I was much better off with you here with me And even after falling out I simply can't lay this love down If you give me one more try I'll give you more of me than you've ever seen How am I supposed to live like this If I just flee from every scene Is that the life I want to live Is that the man I want to be But rest assured tonight I'm set everything right I'm running in reverse now I need you in my life So now I'm traveling this town If only you could hear me now You could tell I was much better off with you here with me And even after falling out I simply can't lay this love down If you give me one more try I'll give you more of me than you've ever seen I thought that I wanted to escape But where I have gone I'm so displaced Will I ever see your face Again
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You That Guides Me 03:38
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I can't tell where I'm coming from But I left there with these problems in my head I seek things that keep going wrong As though I cannot tell how far I've fallen And I don't have to say the reason I just need to let you know that it's true I'm lost I've run so far away Surviving but not safe Wasn't made to walk this road Oh God I'm crying to You now Please come and take me down It's only You that can guide me home Guide me home I thought these things could bring me life But they just fell to pieces when I'd hold them The ways I followed felt so right But now they leave me beaten sore and broken And I don't have to say the reason I just need to let you know that it's true I'm lost I've run so far away Surviving but not safe Wasn't made to walk this road Oh God I'm crying to You now Please come and take me down It's only You that can guide me home Guide me home To the place where I know I belong I know I’m by Your side again I just want to run to Your arms And know I'm finally found again, ‘cause… I'm lost I've run so far away Surviving but not safe Wasn't made to walk this road Oh God I'm crying to You now Please come and take me down It's only You that can guide me home I've run so far away Surviving but not safe Wasn't made to walk this road Oh God I'm crying to You now Please come and take me down It's only You that can guide me home Guide me home Guide me home Guide me home
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Change Your Mind 03:24
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Give me one more chance Let me play this card into your hand Now it's aces high And they caught you in their little lies But you should call their bluff You'll see they're not so tough I hope you change your mind And give this one more try I hope you'd see the truth I'm still missing you tonight So put your hand in mine We can’t just let this die I hope you change your mind And let me in this time Don't you shut me out 'Cause I'm not about to turn and run You can give up now You can hide away from everyone But you should call my bluff You'll see I'm not so tough I hope you change your mind And give this one more try I hope you'd see the truth I'm still missing you tonight So put your hand in mine We can’t just let this die I hope you change your mind And let me in this time I’m not your enemy I know that you barely believed me When I said I wanted you to stick around If I did anything Acted like I’m not what I seem Then let me just undo it Just let me prove it to you now I hope you change your mind And give this one more try I hope you'd see the truth I'm still missing you tonight So put your hand in mine We can’t just let this die I hope you change your mind And let me in this time
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Pandora 03:46
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What are you doing now Dancing on the brink of the forbidden I feel you breaking ground Digging for the hurts that I have hidden And if you let me now I know that I could never help but open up to you But when I sing it out I can't unsay the words and even less deny the truth I see your open eyes They're meeting mine the same But I'm not afraid I am not afraid I locked it all inside But when the dark escapes Only hope remains Only hope remains I built this house of mine A box of bitter words And threw away the key But you told me not to hide When I said you're not alone You gave the same to me And now you're tampering and pulling at my heart While I'm out drowning in the deep But I'm not arguing I'm blinded by the light But it's worth coming up to breathe I see your open eyes They're meeting mine the same But I'm not afraid I am not afraid I locked it all inside But when the dark escapes Only hope remains Only hope remains And still it's so hard to believe That you would come this close to me It seems you caught me by surprise But I won't question what I've seen I wouldn’t trade you for anything I dare the world to tell me why I see your open eyes They're meeting mine the same But I'm not afraid I am not afraid I locked it all inside But when the dark escapes Only hope remains Only hope remains
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Regrets and Repair [feat. Bethany Pedigo] 04:07
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They say live a life of no regrets Take a breath and pass the test of time Kid you’re gonna be just fine But I’m looking back on such a mess That if I stare I’ll stay here petrified In the ruins of my life They never told me just how easy it would be To find myself consumed with all this longing left in me So burn me down I know that I deserve this The hurt behind the verses I can’t hold out I’m weary of this burden I don’t wanna be this person anymore I thought all was for the taking Didn’t care who I was breaking just to find A new way to feel alive And escape the pain I hated So I threw my cares away like they were lies But they’re breaking me this time I’m hollow and so desperate The lie of life with no regrets is through But I wish it weren’t true For these failures I’m a veteran Now I know much better than you do No, you never had a clue I heard about a way to find new life in me But finding this forgiveness is just too hard to believe So burn me down I know that I deserve this The hurt behind the verses I can’t hold out I’m weary of this burden I don’t wanna be this person now So burn me down I know that I deserve this The hurt behind the verses I can’t hold out I’m weary of this burden I don’t wanna be this person anymore You said I just have to cry out and You’ll be there And not even my brokenness is lost beyond repair So burn me down I’m weary of this burden I don’t wanna be this person anymore
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Love and Fear [feat. Martha Christian] 07:01
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The memories inside Burned like cities in the night That never turned to ashes Though they still could feel the flame And when at last it died Not a soul was left to find 'Cause everybody fled so they could never feel the pain I thought I was alone Wandering for far too long But I’m not the only one to be abandoned here I found you in this place When I wasn’t close to brave But the only way to love you was to shatter every fear We only have one shot We only get one try Let's show them what we've got While we still have the daylight You're worth so much more than anyone will ever know Your heart is much too beautiful to ever beat alone I thought I’d tell you so You're holding every piece Trying not to let me see As though you weren't worth the fight to find you in the first I cannot change your mind And I wish that I knew why But I know Christ alone can show you what you're really worth We only have one shot We only get one try Let's show them what we've got While we still have the daylight You're worth so much more than anyone will ever know Your heart is much too beautiful to ever beat alone I thought I’d tell you so If all we have is what we're losing here I'd rather die in love than live in fear We've only got our shattered souls to give But Jesus gave His life so we could live If all we have is what we're losing here I'd rather die in love than live in fear We're fading way too fast to have to hide The weight we carry All the pain we bury deep inside We only have one shot We only get one try Let's show them what we've got While we still have the daylight We only have one shot We only get one try Let's show them what we've got While we still have the daylight You're worth so much more than anyone will ever know Your heart is much too beautiful Just too beautiful to beat alone

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released June 28, 2018

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My Heart Lies Bowling Green, Kentucky

The moment a heart believes a lie, it joins in the lying. Our generation is no longer convinced of its worth, having been lied to by society and each other. We are here to work through those lies and tell the truth. We are a punk rock/post rock outfit with a message: that we are dearly loved by our Maker. And we’re not going to stop until we believe the truth. ... more

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